A song about depression and about chances for growth you missed due to trying to conform to a set of values you didn't choose - and overcoming all of this, moving on - and writing this song.
lyrics
Withered leaves floating on the lake
spring has just begun to roam the meadows.
The branches they have left behind,
hidden from the sun,
contorted by the flight from the shadows.
Walls and a roof, built for its protection
Not to shield off the light, but everything has its price.
The lake is an oasis
in this dreary wasteland
and on good days its shiny surface
helps some beams bypass the roof.
How mighty that tree could have grown elsewhere
but cutting off the roots doesn't work without torment.
Hold my hand while I cry about all the
branches that I did not let grow,
that I cut off
never to allow them to bear any fruit
never chosen
never appointed
to bear fruit
I'm standing by a lake,
watching my reflection,
yellow leaves drift along,
ripples blur my face.
Memories emerge,
tiny whirls from wind or current.
Some try to pull me down,
some are gone without a trace.
If I let them grow,
I know they might consume me.
But when the undertow is strong,
I don't always have that choice.
No choice.
If I could let go,
they could never subdue me.
But I don't always know a song to bleed them out into my voice.
Always is not today,
words and notes pour out of me.
The lake overflows, washing the desert away.
credits
from Convolution,
released December 1, 2022
Thanks to ERWAN for the Cello/Viola-Duet.
Thanks to Rob Halford for daring to sing that high - I probably wouldn't have thought of trying that on my own.
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